Frustration

so, i am not even going to bother with capitals today. i'm too frustrated. with a few things.
first off, i can't help but get frustrated when people say they miss their husbands/boyfriends and they aren't even apart a week. oh, it really kills me if it's just for like one night. i mean, come on. get over yourself. try months at a time. with them not even somewhere you can call. then try missing them. it puts one freaking night into perspective. i try to be sympathetic. i really do. okay, maybe i am lying. because i really don't think i try. granted, i know it stinks to be away from the person you love no matter how long, but don't even think about coming to me to complain about one night. seriously. i mean, the first month cody and i were married, he was gone for 2 weeks. seriously. you think i'm going to care about one little night. please. ok, i'm getting off my soapbox. i'm just a little passionate about this one. okay, okay, seriously i'm done.
now to just my recent frustration. i'm not going into details for my sake, but work is killing me. it's not MY work. i LOVE my boss and all the people i work with. i even like all the kids and their parents. seriously. it's a great job. but, for this reason i'm not talking about, i haven't been at work for 2 weeks. and it's okay. it's kind of been a nice vacation, but it's not what i would choose. so, finally, yesterday i got the call that i was going to work "tomorrow" (tomorrow being today, thursday, but the call was wednesday...make sense?) and i was so super excited. for real. and now i went to work. i am done, early...and am not working tomorrow so the other stuff not involving my work directly can get sorted out. and it's just frustrating. i try to not get upset and i think i'm doing a good job, but it's still rather disheartening. and it makes me sad. what was said that happened would NEVER happen with me. i love my job and my line of work so much and anybody who has EVER known me knows that. it's just hard.
so, now on to other things in my head...
i cannot WAIT for sunday. sunday morning i leave for cabo with my bestest friend and we get to enjoy the beautiful beach and weather until wednesday. i am so excited. not only just to get away from all this stuff, but to be with her for 3 whole days. that doesn't happen very much with her anymore. for one, she's just dang busy. but for two, i don't live there anymore. so, i can't wait. it will be much needed time together.

so, i think i am done thinking right now. i hope you enjoy getting a peak into my thoughts.

have a wonderful day :)
stef

Trying to Decide...

So, I am trying to decide whether or not I want to do this. I love reading other people's blogs and catching up with life. But, do people really want to read what's going on in my head. And how much is too much? And...most importantly...will it make sense? For those of you who know me, no matter how long it has been...you know that sometimes I don't make sense. At all. In any way shape or form. So, work with me here.

Right now, I am completely, utterly, and always overwhelmed. There is so much going on in my life. And what's really hard is some of it I can't talk about. Not that I don't want to, but my life is full of secrets that only the select can get access to. Okay, maybe not that serious, but kind of that serious.

Cody and I are looking to buy a house. Our first house. A place that we can paint and nail things into and tear up (okay, maybe not), but it would be OURS. This is very exciting. But, oh so overwhelming too. I am trying to talk to mortgage brokers, our real estate agent (it's so exciting to say she's OURS), and all the appropriate steps. And it's a bit much. But, we are doing it. And it will be worth it. Especially with the economy like it is. It is such a buyer's market and we are going to take advantage of it.

So, that's all I'm going to share today. I know. I said my mind was random and I think that's where I'm going to stop. Enjoy :)

stef <3